If whole life have balance, everything will be better. – Mr. Miyagi
I suck at balance. I really do. I mean really, really, really suck at it.
My friends and family say I have an obsessive personality. I do way too much on a whim. Just ask them. They will tell you. They will also tell you I just justify it by saying that I’m “passionate”.
One day I hate my job. The next day I love it.
One day I hate the xBox and don’t ever want to play it again. The next I play way too long.
I’ll eat at the same restaurant 5 times in a week and listen to the same song 10x’s in a row without blinking.
I’m either a work-aholic or lazy.
I think it’s because I give in to temptation way too easily. I have all of these great ideas in my head. But then get distracted.
I think the bad red guy with horns uses distractions to distract me.
I guess I’d be bored if everything was always in the middle.
All of that being said . . . I’m selling this. It’s become an idol. And I don’t have balance. Anything I make will go to Kiva. It keeps me from reading. It keeps me from being creative. And my character and personality devolve into something quite dumb when I play online.
If you can assure me that you know how to balance, you can buy it. If not . . . you are not allowed to buy it.
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Cause the IT staff where I work wants morale to be as low as possible, craigslist is blocked. I assume the link is to your xbox?
wow josh…this is huge! I would say that I applaud your move, because you’ve reached the point where you know it’s controlling you and causing you to devolve as a person.
But I do it with ulterior motives. Before I finished your post, I felt a strong urge to buy the system…then saw your last sentence above and laughed. It would rule me too. So don’t allow me to buy it from you, no matter what I say to justify it.
p.s. What do you think so far about the night offices? I grabbed tickle’s eastertide prayers for lent at a booksale last year, and I probably experienced Lent more deeply x 25 than I ever have…
“the bad red guy with horns” …
you really crack me up sometimes josh =P
great move man. i think we find a lot of life in voluntarily letting go of things like this.
eric. you are right. and sorry about the spam.
nathan. sorry for the sales job only to turn it on you.
as for the night offices, i really enjoyed it. only probably is that i got it from the library so i only used it for 2 weeks. but very good bedside help. especially for me who is beginning to struggle with free form prayer because of my wondering mind and feeling like i have nothing to say. its good to have some that have been prayed over and over again and are well worn by the community of god. some call it lazy. i call it beautiful. i’ll just have to get the book for christmas.
i agree with you.
The drive for originality in our prayers I think is just another flavor of American individualism. I have a wandering mind as well, and I’m honestly tired of me-centered self-talk praying. Well-worn prayers that cross generations have a rootedness that our Max Lucado-Joel Osteen age can’t sniff at.
Yea… the x-box thing is a funny one.
I got my x-box (not a 360) for free from my brother, who got it for a wedding gift (not a good idea) and was playing it way too much (especially for a newly-wed). So he gave it to me.
I have had my moments when I have played it way too much, but I actually have been pretty good. Since I have moved (4 months ago), I have only played it once for about an hour. I am pretty impressed with myself.
But in reality I have just found other things to be addicted to (the internet, for one). So now I need to learn to fix a different addiction.
And good for you – it is a tough choice to sell an x-box. I am pretty impressed with you too.
you ass.
Well done Josh, Well done.
Another compelling post like this and I’ll probably have to ditch my laptop.
who said anything about laptops? you can forget that. an arch angel will have to pry it out of my hands.
ha ha nice…the bad red guy with horns and an arch angel in one post…classic