Direction.

I’m not feeling all to well today. A little on the sick side. But I’ll survive. I’ve been sorting through some stuff in my head about where I want to go and what direction I want to take in the next few years. So we’ll see where that takes me. I’m just trying to sort through the present in light of where I want to be in the future. And if you saw my present and if you know my heart for the future, then you can understand why I’m attempting to do some sorting.

It looks like I’m going to take over a small group of 11th grade guys out at NorthPoint. My only hang up is that I want be able to be as involved as I’d like to because of my schedule and the distance. It would be hard to have lunch and go to their games and other assorted things. But I need to be serving somewhere, so it looks like thats the direction I’m going to take there. Theres some other stuff, I can’t really talk about right now, because I don’t want to get ahead of myself. But theres some stuff that I think is happening. Not sure what. I just really sense that God is moving behind the scenes, doing something. Life’s a journey, so we’ll see. Until then . . .

Kierkegaard.

I was reading from a compliation of Soren Kierkegaard’s writing and the editor wrote this in the introduction. He was discussing about the different levels of existence or the different stages of life that people are on. Sadly, the first and primary of the stages, sounds like me oftentimes. Here is how Kirkengard describes this stage:

This life is a life that is immediately lived – a life lived for “the moment”. It is the lifestyle in which people are absorbed in satisfying their “natural” desires and impulses, whether physical, emotional, or intellectual. These people are solely concerned with their own happiness and believe that the key to happiness is found in externals – who they know, what they do, the roles they play, what they possess, where they live, and so on. They live for enjoyment, on the surface of life. They are observers, spectators, tasters, but not serious participants. They have no real inner life, no real self to offer to others. Their well-being is determined by the choices or moods of others and by forces that extend beyond their control. When they make decisions, they are not internalized.

I’ll be dead honest. That’s a pretty accurate description of me 90% of the time.

Current.

What I’m Reading This Week: The Gospel In A Pluralistic Society by Leslie Newbigin

What I’m Listening to This Week: Aselin Debison, Iz, Ryan Adams, Dashboard Confessional, Moby

Isaiah.

Meditations on Isaiah 14:26-27

“I have a plan for the whole earth, for my mighty power reaches throughout the world. The LORD Almighty has spoken–who can change his plans? When his hand moves, who can stop him?”

Who am I to question You Lord? I am simply a man with limited wisdom and understanding. Who am I to try and understand Your plan? Your plan for redeeming? Your plan to seek justice on the world? What seems harsh to me is pure and perfect in Your sight. I am nothing but a man that is always changing. But I want my heart to be as yours. Bend it and tune it to You. Who am I to make such a request? I’m deserving of nothing. But I want to know Your heart. Find favor with me and let Your grace and discipline make my heart like You.

Ado.

Much ado about God
A big deal is due Him
A huge fuss
Loud voices
He’s everything
The core of it all
I’ll draw attention
Make everyone look
Much grace to me
So much glory to Him
Big, huge, large
What kind of words are these to describe God
Much ado about Him though
Thats for sure